I’m not sure.

What have i done?

Mindy is sobbing after overhearing that her mommy won’t be around for a week,Alex is in his room playing his with his X-box and Tiffany is hugging Mindy,trying to calm her down.

I’m afraid Mindy might get an asthma attack while i’m away.Tiffany told me not to worry and that she would handle everything.She understands that it is my dream to be a photographer.

I have to pack my bags now.I’ll write while i’m in the plane.

Signing out with my troubled kids,

Madison P.

Photography by:Charlotte Geary

Night view from Westin Tokyo

Fall in Tokyo

Last Tokyo Sunset in 2006

Marcus Andrews!

My ex-classmate at high school.We used to go out once but it didn’t work out.His dreams as a photographer are coming true.He’s currently a teacher at the academy of arts university teaching photography.And my dreams are about to come true because he needs a co-photographer to follow him to Tokyo to take pictures for his class reunion party!It will be for a week but the problem is,i’m not sure who can take care of the kids.I know Tiffany is old enough but i’m not sure if she can handle all the responsibilities.Especially Mindy’s medications for her asthma and bringing her to all her social training calsses.And doing all the cooking and cleaning and making sure Alex doesn’t get into trouble.So i asked Marcus for advice,and this is what he said:

Marcus:Hello?May i please speak to Ms Madison?

Me:This is Madison speaking.May i ask who is this please?

Marcus:Madison!This is Marcus.Thank goodness its you!I urgently need a co-photogapher to help me take pictures for my class reunion party to follow me to Tokyo for a week.Is it possible for you to be my co-photographer?

*muffled scream in the distance*

Marcus:Madison?Are you there?

Me:Oh.Sorry.Something happened.Are you serious?You want me to be your co-photographer?Oh my.This is such a privellege.But,there is a tiny problem.Can kids come?

Marcus:Your kids?Oh my gosh,Madison.You’re not married,are you?

Me:Unfortunately yes,but a divorced mother of 3.

Marcus:I’m sorry,Madison.But i only bought two tickets to Tokyo for the both of us.And the flight is completely booked.So there isn’t any space left for your kids.I’m sorry.But is there any other way?

Me:Well,I could ask my oldest daughter to take care of the others.But i’m not sure she’s up for the responsibility.My youngest has asthma and has to go for a weekly social training class.And i’m afraid something might happen.What if there’s a fire or a cyclone?What will happen?

Marcus:I’m sorry.But there’s nothing i can do.You have no other choice but to ask your oldest to take care of them otherwise i will have to look for another co-phototgrapher.This is a good opportunity for you to be found.

Me:Oh.Give me a day for me to think about it.Call me again tomorrow.I’ll tell you what i’ll do.

Marcus:Sure thing,Maddie.I’ll call you tomorrow.

Oh my gosh!He called me Maddie!That’s what he used to call me when we were dating!Oh my.I’m acting like a teenager all over again.

I’ll be back soon.I have to do some long thinking.

Signing out confused,

Madison P.

And here’s the bride!

She looked so beautiful in her wedding gown.

My favourite was her wedding cake.It tasted scrumptious!

Her Alvina Valenta dress looked especially beautiful!

They looked so happy.I could just remember when Tom and I got married.That was the past.I can’t bare to remember it anymore.

Signing off,

Madison P.

I’m a Virgo.

I’m 5’4.Pretty short for a woman my age.

I love photography,baking,and of course,my kids.

Got to go.

Sorry.

I will continue soon.

Signing off dazed,

Madison P.

Everyday.

Why does he have to be in trouble?Why?

Everyday after school ends,when he has to be returning home,i get a call from the school saying that Alex is in trouble.Again.

This time,my blood pressure is to the limit.I can’t take it anymore.Why does he have to do all these things?Why can’t he be like his older sister?

Tiffany.

She is just perfect.She gets straight A’s,is in a good school,perfect records.Why can’t Alex be like her?

Eversince the divorce,he’s been acting strange.Can’t he see that i’m too stressed already?Can’t he feel my pain?I know he’s troubled,we’re all troubled for crying out loud!

Tom.

He left us,for my backstabbing bestfriend.How could he?

I  don’t understand life.Why does it always have to have a horrible side?Why can’t it just be

PERFECT?

Signing off in tears,

Madison P.

My name is Madison Parkman and i’m a secretary to the most cruel person alive,divorced for one month and 16 days,and a 24/7 mother of 3.

My oldest,Tiffany Parkman is an 18 year old student at National Junior College.

My middle child,Alexander Parkman is a 10 year old student at Yuhua Primary School.

My youngest daughter,Mindy Parkman is a 3 year old toddler.

Today,i’ve just returned from a trip to the Dynamics OTC Therapy Centre for Kids with Mindy.We go there for an hour a week which costs more than $500.Apparently,Mindy has been diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome a month ago,16 days after my divorce with Tom.The doctor said it could be possible that the sickness came from Tom’s sister who had Asperger’s before.

I’ve been married to Tom for 16 years and i found out that he had been going out with my bestfriend last year.Eversince then,i’ve lost contact with her.

I’ve got to go now.The phone is ringing.

Signing off,

Madison P.